It's not a good day when you have to accept the facts.
ODOU began as a side project, a passion project even, something that I worked on in any spare time I could get my hands on. Having next to no print design experience, or editorial, I learnt everything on the job and kept trying to better each issue than the one gone before.
Sometimes this was hard. It's been a one-man job for the most part, perhaps this is reflective of the stage where things are at. I imagined copies flying off the shelves, being a larger publication than where it got to, but ultimately I couldn't make this baby fly as far as I could. I know my strengths and my weaknesses, and my weaknesses this time has eclipsed the magazine's potential. But this is OK.
Being a side project, I did start all this out for lots of personal reasons and I can see now that those reasons have been fulfilled. Now feels like a good time to pause and consider what's next, without giving up entirely, ODOU could come back in the not-too-distant future.
ODOU is my baby and I'm so proud of it and all its successes and achievements both for myself and of course everyone who has been involved. I feel privileged to have worked with talented, imaginative and encouraging people every step of the way. And on a really personal level, I never believed I could produce the kind of work that would win awards or get stocked in the Tate Modern. Sometimes we can surprise ourselves.
I don't know how much I believe in "following your dream" these days... I don't believe we can achieve anything we want. ODOU wasn't necessarily a dream of mine, but something that made me curious, determined, nervous and excited. I believe these are the paths we should follow because dreams never turn out the way we wish. But working little bit, day by day, can get us somewhere, perhaps to places we didn't think we would arrive at, but those places can be as exciting and rewarding and satisfying than we imagined.